Am I bipolar or do I just have major depression?

Growing up I was sexually abused and I lost my dad to liver cancer. I watched him die. fast forward a few years. I'm sexy, confident, and I get what I WANT. I seduce my boss at UPS (that's highly looked down upon, can end in termination) and I sleep with 8 different guys around the same time. It's okay cause sex is just sex, right?

I meet the love of my life at UPS but he is the same level as me so it's ok for us to date. we get married. one month later, I have what I think to be a manic episode with psychosis. I couldn't sleep, I was fidgety, and a voice was telling me to kill Daniel and myself so I turned myself in. I was hospitalized for what they thought to be major depression.

Almost a year later, we have our first child. Between then and the end of my hospitalization, I'm fine. after giving birth I crash. I crash hard. I want to hurt my son. Postpartum depression slams into me like a semi. so I am hospitalized again. I didn't want to eat, drink, or live.

After wards I feel better as they get me on Prozac, Abilify, and Xanax. but 8 weeks later I feel like crap. I think I'm in a manic episode. I have racing thoughts, irritability, I can't focus, and I am usually filled with rage. Last time I saw my psych she said she was going to be changing my diagnosis. does this sound like bipolar disorder?

Given your history and symptoms, I'd say you have Borderline Personality Disorder

You have a bunch of things happening. Schizophrenia, postpartum depression, anxiety, It's going to take some time to get over what you have. I suggest staying away from your husband and son while you try to get better.

Yes,from the start you had a hyper sexual episode on the manic end.not only were you given the wrong diagnosis but may need different medication to keep you from having manic episodes. The PP depression could have been caught in the hospital in your chart unless your OB/GYN didn't know about your depression. There is no excuse for a doctor to dismiss depression because of course a person with depression is going to probably get post partum depression I am sorry you had to go through those feelings. call your doc now and maybeyou can avoid the manic episode

Am I bipolar or do I just have major depression?

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