hi. i am a thirteen year old girl, who constantly attempts suicide by traumatic bleeding. and unfortunately, i never succeed. so instead of attempting suicide everyday, i cut myself. in the thighs, ankles, wrists. these aren't just simple lacerations. i would cut more than 30 cuts until too much blood would come out. my friends think that i have a huge mental problem associated with depression. i make deep cuts with cutters, razors, scissors, knives, broken glass, or blades. i wrist ang legs have scars which make my skin's color uneven already. these inhuman cuts appear so clearly because even after a day, they still are red as blood. i try to not make them visible by any means possible. i wear huge watches to hide the ones in my wrist, and luckily, our long skirt uniform hide the cuts in my thighs. i pull up my socks way too high to hide the ones in the ankle. they call me crazy because they can't look at the red ovelapping cuts anymore. some of my friends get mad at me because i won't stop. some won't even talk to me anymore. with all the cutting and suicide attempts that i make. everything is already provident in my school grades. all i want to do now is tell my parent's that there's something wrong with me. every night i cry and cut myself, then in the morning my eyes would be too swollen that everyone would notice and my cuts hurt real bad. my life's just been so ****** up lately that i get too depressed. i want to see a doctor and cure this. i really want to cure this. but i don't know how i tell my parents that i need to see a doctor so they can say what kind of mental disorder i have. (i'm pretty sure and my friends tell me that i suffer from the bipolar disorder or manic depression) but i don't kow how to say it to my mom or dad. it seems too bold just to say "mom, i cut myself real bad and i want to see a doctor." i need help. i need help real bad.
Sounds moer like Borderline Personality disorder..... Self harm is VERY common with Borderline but not so much with Bipolar.
People confuse mood with emotion..... mood affects everything about you. Your energy level, sleep patterns, appetite, emotional response (which emotions you feel and how strongly), your judgment, sexual appetite, etc....... Bipolar is not about being happy one minute then sad the next then mad, that is just having emotions..... the mood swings in Bipolar last a very long time, weeks to months to years and the average Bipolar only swings once or twice a year.
People never never understand the true severity of bipolar disorder. They also do not understand that for an "episode" to be considered Bipolar it has to last all day every day for a week....... That's the minimum, in reality the episodes last for weeks or months or even years. there are cases where a person can have more than one or two episodes a year but it is really rare. there is such a thing as Ultradian cycling in which you cycle multiple times in a day but it is exceptionally rare and there are questiona about whether it is actually Bipolar but instead Borderline PD. also you HAVE TO HAVE the mania (or hypomania) for it to be bipolar. without mania it is just recurring depression.
The mood swings in Bipolar do not usually have a trigger. They come and go very randomly...... if someone with Bipolar is depressed or manic there is nothing you can do to bring them out of their mood short of medication.....
This is what Bipolar is like for me.
Depression- to tired to get out of bed, shower, brush your teeth..... lie in bed and stare at the ceiling for days at a time, crying a lot, feelings of guilt, and self loathing, may be suicidal but are too tired to even consider planning it, sleep 16 hours a day or more, eating too much or not enough. I get very paranoid and think that people are staring at me and laughing. I feel like people know what I'm thinking.
Manic - over the moon happy, hypersexual (like masturbating 10 times a day or sleeping with numerous men, strangers, your cousin.......decide you are bi because then there are twice as many people to have sex with, decide you are into BDSM and contract to be someones slave for a week), spending your mortgage money on african violets (or some other useless things), driving your car 120 mph, grandiose thoughts (like thinking you can put a new furnace in your house by yourself, or tearing the sideing of the house because youcan put ip new stuff by yourself with a hammer and a hacksaw), quitting your job because you are buying lottery tickets with your last paycheck and you know you will win...... only sleep 2 or 3 hours a night and feel completely rested, can't concentrate, racing thoughts (it sounds like 50 people in your head all talking at the same time), talk really fast and loud because your mouth can't keep up with our mind.
It's like a scratch, your bleeding and then you decide to put a plaster on..Your hiding what's going on, and by putting on a 'plaster' on.
You need to 'rip off that plaster' and tell your mum, ask her to sit down and say
'ive not been myself for a while, I've been upset over some things and haven't been able to deal with things so i've been cutting myself (show her the scars)'
and then ask her for help, ask her to book an appointment with the doctor. It'll be hard, but it'll get better. It's like when you rip off the plaster the scratch is still there, but over time it'll heal.
Good luck, and i hope you feel better soon! 
Hello their, im sorry to hear your going through this rough time and it wouldnt supprise me if you are depressed. But yes you need to get a referal from a gp or Dr to see a Sycologist. See they can talk to you then use their experience and a diagnosis manual to give you the answers you need and a diferent soulution to your troubles instead of cutting yourself.
People cut themselves for mental relief of their pain, normally their is alot of self hatred towards themselves.
Ive cut myself before quit serverely untill my chest was just covered in blood, crazy enough i even laughed about. that was the night me and my x fiance seperated.
What you should ask yourself is, what is turning you to cutting yourself?
As a teenager you will be going through many changes in your mind and body and it's quit common for young people to go through depression and anxiety.
The thing is schools and many parents dont inform you of these rapid changes and we try and find our own soulutions.
Lack of sleep is also a bad thing because it makes our mental health troubles even worse.
The Dr's can put you on an anti depressent which also helps with sleep.
You may not be able to see into a bright future but i asure you there is an awsum life waiting for you. the thing is which path to walk down? the decissions you maker today lead you to where you go tommorro.
So asking for help is a great step you have taken.
You ask how do you tell your parents?
There isnt an easy way, you just have to be the strong person you can be and tell them immediatly, they love you, they may even know but are to worried to ask you.
As far a suicide, just remind yourself their will be better days even days when you smile on the inside.
Ive had suicidle tendencies since i was about 8, my worst self destruction was at 16 when i took a box of panodol tablets after drinking scotch and putting a loaded gun in my mouth, but what i realised is the effect it would have on the people i leave behind. My Mum would have come in to see a terible sight.
So keep that in mind too, your parents feel your hurt 10x and although im sure you argue at times they care for you even if at times it doesnt seem like it.
So talk with your parents now, atleast they can try and help you as best they can and send you to a Dr.
As far as Bi polar (same thing as manic deppression just re named) i dont think you should worry about having that but you can get it checked out, i would think from what your saying is you have depression/ anxiety but im no Dr. just keep in mind it's normal to go through rapid changes in teens, it's how you deal with it that makes the diference.
Your welcome to message my QnA if your having a bad day, but it's vital you tell your folks now.
You will be ok there is sunshine after every storm, even if the storm seems never ending. sincerely me
Tell your parents that you want to talk with them at a specific time for, say, an hour, and that it's important. try to do it that day, before the doctor's offices close.
Don't try to diagnose yourself. you could have any number of disorders, and not necessarily mood disorders. tell them you need to get diagnosed by a psychiatrist asap, and you will need to be hospitalized while they figure out your diagnosis and treatment, AND cure you of the obsession with cutting and suicide.
You are also probably severely anemic, which can make you feel low. you will probably need a blood transfusion.
The reason I'm hitting you hard with all of this is because out of four people with mental illness in my family, three committed suicide. Your death would devastate your parents beyond words. They would feel at fault, and they would grieve the rest of their lives. the kids at school who taunt you may be deeply scarred by guilt. Suicide leaves a great big hole in your loved ones' hearts that seems like it will never go away.
I agree that you should print out this post and show it to them. Don't cut yourself just before telling them just to get the to believe you. just tell them; they love you, and you can't go through this alone at 13.
Everyone (almost) on this post cares for you and wants to see you healthy and happy. It is probably a long time since you felt that way. give your parents and yourself a chance before you make a miserable mistake.
May God shine his countenance upon thee...
From what you have described, it does not sound like you have bipolar. It goes without saying that because you are cutting and have suicide ideation that you do have some mental health issues that need to be addressed. can't you make an appointment to see your doctor yourself so that tour parents don't know? as with what one of the answers says, there does seem to be a trend going around with young teenagers reckoning they have bipolar. why they want to be labelled as such is beyond me. I can assure you that having bipolar is not trendy but destructive and has a major impact on your life.
Print this, and take it to your school counselor, and show your scars. ask for the help you so obviously need.
Try the insomnia treatments at http://your-mental-health.weebly.com/1.h… and see the post on self harm, bipolar disorder, depression, and pages b, c, & a, but note the remarks about bipolar disorder being overdiagnosed, and the risks, and side effects of medications.
No.
Everyone thinks they have bi-polar nowadays.
I think you have a problem with self harm, but your friends are wrong when they say you have bi-polar disorder. Bi-polar disorder is characterised by extreme mood-swings which you do not describe (your mood swings are almost definitely hormones, you're 13 years old!). the 'manic' periods do not fit your symptoms at all. I don't even think you're depressed; you don't describe being depressed, you just say you like to cut.
Go to your doctor and explain how you feel. I expect you'll be diagnosed with depression or just a very bad case of teenage hormones, but if you get diagnosed with bi-polar then your doctor is an idiot.
You sound just like my sister used to be. she would cut her arms up all the time. Only she didn't try to hide it because they were such big gashes that she would either die, or tell mom that she needed to go get stitches. Only her forearms and wrist as far as I know though. you should definitely tell your parents right away. My sister is recovered because of doctors. She's severely bipolar. Medicine is the only way to cure this problem. you are doing nothing wrong except for trying to hide it. My sister will have a relapse if they don't switch her medicine on occasion. she used to be mean to me as a kid and had bad grades but now she is just my big sister. She's even planning on getting married and taking care of her daughter without my mom's assistance any more. It's easy for someone to say, stop doing this to yourself, but they don't understand that you are sick and you really need a doctor to treat your sickness. so please tell your parents, they will forgive you, especially once you see a doctor and the doctor tells them that you have a sickness that must be treated with medicine.
Hello..
Yes please by all means see a doctor
Your parents may be shocked but it is very very important that you seek help
The earlier something is diagnosed the better your chances are of things changing and the right treatment being found
This girl is not attention seeking - she hides her cuts etc, and may really be suffering from a mental illness
Do you have a school counsellor? ask at the front office to see them.
You really need to see someone!
Don't diagnose yourself with anything. But please tell your parents that you are feeling awful and that you want to see a doctor. if you cannot do that, speak to somebody else ( a trusted adult) who might tell your parents for you. It is fantastic that you recognize you have some problems and want to deal with them. that makes you are very bright, intelligent person who has great potential in life.
Best wishes to you!
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