I am so depressed its serious?

I am so depressed i have bags under my eyes and have not been able to concentrate i am so depressed its actually unbeliveable how depressed i am even my doctor is saying this is not common to see a unusally depressed person so depressed even in my 63 years of depression have i seen such a severe depressed person

reason he said this is because he wrote this him self

One . you have good family support
2 you dont seem to have any pyscial elements
3 you only have slight stressers such as family fights
4 you don't seem to have good social skills
5 you don't seem to be happy even when someone supports you
6 you dont even seem happy when you help someone else even when you are helping out
7 you seem that the world is all of a place of bad things
8 you said you didn't know how to express *thanks* to your own family
9 you keep telling them i shouldn't be a berdin
10 you are bipolar but why are you so depressed?
11 even with your depression that you have you said you can't even think about anything
12 you have signs that you are severely depressed
13 your depression is so strong you aren't even happy at anything that would make everyone else smile
14 you score a 95 out of 100 for severe mania depression but you are not manic 99 precent of the time
15 you have serious issues that are inside your head
16 i don't even think any of the anti depressents can stop you from becoming depressed even at the highest reccomened dosage
17 we tried CBT and hypthearpy but that doesn't seem to work what is going on with you!
18 this is the hardest and most complicated case i have ever seen before
19 i don't understand why you could be so depressed
20 i did a CBC and you seem fine except a Hyperthyroidism
21 you said you are so depressed because you seem like everyone hates you because of how you treated other people as a young child and feel that you don't belong in a good family

ive tried everything guys CBC CBT Depression test and i feel like im a birdin i get angry when people do nice things for me i have not lastest in a relationship as 99 precent of women want a good guy who is not self depressed or handsome which i know i am as i was created by god theres reasons to this this is more severe because i know im depressed and yet i cant take it i have been on 9 different anti depressents none have worked hes thinking about EST or ECT thearpy i refuse but im going to do it anyway but there has to be a reason for it ive been trying to lock it into my brain ive been mentally hospitalized multiple times for it but i know theres a thing making me so depressed i can't probley express my depression its more serious then physcial illnessness because it hurts so much more mentally then physcial pain i love living and i don't wanna be this way anymore
And also because its valentines day i notice the load in this section of Mental health

I think you should pray, you seem to be a spiritual person, ask for understanding and protection...

Also try this>> http://www.5min.com/Video/Positive-Think…

Good luck and best wishes =D

On number 21 you said that "you are so depressed because you seem like everyone hates you because of how you treated other people as a young child and feel that you don't belong in a good family ". Why don't you try to work it off? Be in exchange with your family and others. instead of being depressed and just accepting that that's that, why don't you try to do things to make up for whatever you feelabout about? you have the right to be happy, healthy and have a good family who supports you. I'm not surprised the anti-depressants haven't worked because from what you've said here, it seems like it's just guilt. also instead of focusing on how depressed you are everyday, try to find 5 things that are good about your life that you can appreciate. Just 5. Everyday. And try to look for something that maybe you either currently aspire for or once have aspired to be or do and start with that. Like painting for instance. Let's say that you liked to paint, and you just put all of your feelings into creating something that might communicate to others. Find something that'll give you some hope and make you happier. Trust me. it works(:

I am so depressed its serious?

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