hi everyone im a 19 year old male who is full of anxiety about myself and depression about what i have done throughout my life so far.let me say that this last year of my life has been my most tramatic year of my life. All this started when my dog became ill with parasites but he started to show agression and act strange so i feared the worst i feared he had gotten rabies which i now know he did not. but i spent countless hours reading about rabies symptoms which mad me panic every time i read them them and this caused me to develope anxiety symptoms such as fatigue depression panic attacks loss of appetite as well as digestional upsets. well i went to the docter many times for this only to be told it was a cold or a bug. but then probably the 6th time i went i told the docter about how i worried for my dog and he said i had anxiety when he told me that i became a little fearful. I began looking up mental illnesses like anxiety disorders and simililar disorders when i came across thing like bi polar, personality disorders, and schitzofrenia which i have all feared i had at 1 point. All this anxiety and depression caused me to look back at my life growing up to see if i fit the bill for a psychopath which i do not want to be that is one of my main causes of sadness and anxiety at one point in my adolescenses years i abused a cat which i think maybe a sign that i am a psychopath. also sometimes i get a little arrogant and loud when things dont go as planned but see the cat thing really bothers me soo bad in my heart i am soooooo sorry i did that but i cannot shake that thought about the cat it bothers me everyday. i really wish i could go back in time and do things differently i am soo sad that i think i am a bad person and a psychopath. Truely this is what i want to become i want to be a better son a better man a more responsible man i want to be more friendly all the time i just really want to be the opposite of a psychopath i almost cried while righting this i have just had a tramatic year from being kicked out of my moms being in a homeless shelter and then moving states to live with my dad now i have moved back in with my mom but i fill like now i am back in the place where all my depression and anxiety started i fill lost but i want to be back to normal i want to be a happy go lucky person
TO whoever responds thanks for your input and advice may God bless you
This thing about the cat - it's okay. you obviously feel bad for what you've done, and that's a great step to take. Psychopaths are known to not have remorse or guilt for their actions. but since you DO have remorse and feel sorry for the cat, it probably shows that you aren't a psychopath. a psychopath wouldn't think a thing of it if they did that, but you do. you aren't a bad person, either. Maybe you were just angry or frustrated at the time - everybody gets that way. since you are showing guilt for the actions and since it still haunts you, I'm sure you aren't as bad of a person as you think. Try not to let this get to you - just let the past go and have a fresh start, without worries.
I hope you feel much better as soon as possible!
you can be all of those things just as long as you believe in yourself.
the cat thing is just a blip. a little mistake. so what, you abused a cat? I once point blanced my little brother in the back of the head with a bb gun and I felt soo bad, but he lived and got over it.
you are strong, and your problems are only as big as you make them.
think positively!
much love man. <3
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