Think I Suffer From Depression, I'm Too Afraid To Seek Help?

I know there is something wrong with me mentally/psychologically.
It was only recently I realised just how bad it is.

Symptoms- I'm a lazy s*** , have no motivation to do anything as far as socializing goes, I have no REAL friends, I don't really get on with my family, my parents are very strict and make all my decisions for me.
I've had enough of it and I really want help. i just want to be a normal teenage girl. I see all other girls my age going out to parties having fun messing around. BEING NORMAL.

When I was younger ( 8 years old) I was sexually abused and never told anyone until I broke down one day when I was 16 and told my mother. she wasn't supportive at all, she just told me not to tell anyone. I have never had a real boyfriend because I THINK its because of what happened to me I just can't trust guys and I get really scared when I'm alone with them

There are times I cry myself to sleep and this could go on for over a week, and then I'm fine the next few weeks. Then later I think of my terrible life and how much I hate myself and get depressed and cry all over again.
I know I should tell my parents or family but I genuinely dont think they will listen or understand...

I'm 19 years old and I just really wan't to talk to someone if anything else, someone who would listen to me

Is this really depression, or just a really bad stage I'm going through in life?
I'm thinking about going to see my family doctor soon but I'm not sure what to say or expect from it?

Sorry for the long question. And a big thank you in advance.x

I am not a dr but it does sound like to me that you are depressed--and have several other problems.
GO to your dr or a priest or school councilor?
please be certain to write down all your symptom and what you'd like to talk to your dr about
i wish you all the best

yes you do have depression and you should go see a therapist. when you go to your doctor tell him everything including the abuse and any symptoms you have ie; lack or excessive-sleep, eating, focus, motivation, low self worth, anxiety, stress, paranoia, crying, self harming, thoughts of death and any suicidal thoughts you may have had. good luck!

Think I Suffer From Depression, I'm Too Afraid To Seek Help?

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