What's wrong with me? Anxiety disorder or depression?please read this is important i want to self harm myself?

i'm just going to list the symptoms right now i feel like i'm dying it's like i'm emotionless?
i don't know who i am?
i get scared of being raped, attacked and i won't go near men?
i hate the way i look i hate everything about me i notice all this bad stuff about my body
i don't go out i'm oversleeping/eating
when i do go out to the shop i'm shaky i look over my shoulder i get nervous and if a male is behind i get a nerve down my spine and i get edgy like watching with over my shoulder i just run because i get scared this started happening because of what happened to me at college a guy took pictures of me like he was a pervert and he still has them i was on my own i just ran home he was still taking pictures of me i'm terrified to be alone.

When it's sunny i'm miserable but when it's rainy i'm not happy but i'm okay and trust me i LOVED the sun i'm not at school my friends used me i had a councilor for emotional problems i was real sensitive lost concentration had suffered abuse at home wasn't my parents fault they didn't have a good upbringing my sisters anorexic i worried about her constantly i feel so alone

I overeat, put on a lot of weight without noticing
don't have confidence no self esteem i don't respect myself
lonely, hopeless
suicidal thoughts i want so self harm myself
i'm scared of what people think of me
i get this tingling feeling in my tummy which won't go away
lack of energy
i fantasize i'm someone else like create some pretty girl who i wish i was i wish i was dead at times
i go to bed not wanting to wake up in the morning i feel like i don't have a purpose
i miss my old best friend she got me attacked by 4 girls she set me up we were best friends for 7 years now i'm on my own and she hangs with those 4 girls i left school i couldn't cope with being lonely no one talking to me in class.
i have no motivation i'm trying to start again i have a college interview soon but i'm scared i'll fail i don't feel myself i don't feel happy this has been getting worse for over a year

I think you have social anxiety that led to depression. You should probably go talk to a psychologist.

What's wrong with me? Anxiety disorder or depression?please read this is important i want to self harm myself?

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